Monday, April 17th, 2006
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Monday
April 17th, 2006
9:23am
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yesterday was a great day. i had more fun than i've had in a long time. it felt so good just to relax and laugh and be myself without having to worry about people not accepting me.
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Tuesday, April 4th, 2006
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Tuesday
April 4th, 2006
9:10pm
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two days till chicago. i'm so excited! gonna meet some cute northern boys haha. probably not. but whatever. i like southern boys better anyway. more charm. must be somethin about the accent. anyway. gotta go start gettin stuff ready. catch ya later.
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Sunday, March 26th, 2006
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Sunday
March 26th, 2006
9:11pm
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and now for a truly emo post:
i hate life. life sucks. harder than a whore. yeah. it does.
if this is some kind of test, lesson learned. there's no need for anymore, so we could just quit now. please and thank you.
stand up and prove to me that you're worth the fight. prove that i can trust you. that i should trust you. prove that you care. don't tell me you do than then go out and contradict yourself. grow up. figure out what you want. learn to be happy with what you have. then everything that you gain will be better. make something of yourself. if you want something- work for it. don't expect others to get it for you. you're not five anymore. your biggest problem is no longer learning how to tie your shoes. your mom can't kiss it and make it better-whatever "it" may be at the time. so risk big. go for it. cause those who risk, win.
yeah. that's all i have to say. goodnight.
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Saturday, March 25th, 2006
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Saturday
March 25th, 2006
11:04pm
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*i'm hard to remember, but impossible to forget.
*have the courage to fail big and stick around-make 'em wonder why you're still smiling. that's true greatness.
*you have five minutes to wallow in the delicious misery. enjoy it, embrace it, discard it, and proceed.
*i want you to get into the deep, beautiful, melancholy of everything that's happened.
*those who risk, win.
*the best love is the kind that awakens the soul and makes us reach for more, that plants a fire in our hearts and brings peace to our minds, and that's what you've given me. that's what i hope to give you forever. i love you. i'll be seeing you.
*i am nothing special; just a common person with common thoughts, and i've led a common life. there are no monuments dedicated to me and my name will soon be forgotten. but in one respect i have succeeded as gloriously as anyone who's ever lived: i've loved another with all my heart and soul; and to me, this has always been enough.
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Wednesday, March 15th, 2006
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Wednesday
March 15th, 2006
9:45pm
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*freaking grow up! not everything in life is a joke, and sometimes when you joked about serious things it hurts other people.
*i hate being alone. when life gets tough it's nice to have someone special to be there for you- someone you have a connection with. i'm so used to having someone like that that i don't know how to handle things now that i don't.
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Tuesday, February 28th, 2006
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Tuesday
February 28th, 2006
8:36pm
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so yeah, i stole this from alli.
1.heather is-------?
2.heather can------ really well?
3.heather is------ to me?
4.heather needs to--------?
5.i can see heather---- in 3years?
6.i can see heather-----in 10 years
7.i can see heather marrying-----?
8.the best memory i have w/ heather is------?
9.i----- w/ heather
10.mine and heather's song is----?
11.my favorite place to go with heather is-------?
12.heather is
A.crazy
B.scary
C.a crazy driver
D.make up your own answer
13.heather is cool b/c--------?
14.heather is the most------ person ive ever meet?
15.if i could take heather somewhere it would be---?
16.wats your favorite time of the day to spend w/heather is----?
17. me and heather---- on the weekends
18.i like heather best when shes------?
ok, so i don't care if you have good or bad comments, but if you make an anonymous post, put something in there where i can figure out who you are. i'm going to screen all comments before i post them anyway.
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Monday, February 27th, 2006
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Monday
February 27th, 2006
9:26pm
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~so much for changing for the better. i wanted to feel like someone cared about me. i didn't want to feel so alone. too bad that didn't work because now i feel even more alone. so thanks. you're a jackass. too bad no one told me before. whatever. i guess i'm a dumbass then because i'd still talk to you if you came up to me. i know you won't though, so i need to put everything behind me and forget about it. no regrets, because everything happens for a reason- so we can learn and grow. one day i'll look back on this and understand.
~i hate how things seems to be working out great for everyone around me, but my life slowly falls apart. and i just have to stand there helpless, watching it all happen.
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Saturday, February 18th, 2006
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Saturday
February 18th, 2006
11:15am
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wow. my life is crazy. i've changed so much i don't even know who i am anymore. but it's for the better. i think anyway. :)
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Tuesday, February 14th, 2006
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Tuesday
February 14th, 2006
4:44pm
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i am so incredibly stupid it's not even funny. i hate valentine's day and everything about it.
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Monday, January 30th, 2006
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Monday
January 30th, 2006
7:33pm
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"Beautiful" lyrics--with a little twist
My life is brilliant.
My love is pure.
I saw an angel.
Of that I'm sure.
He smiled at me on the subway.
He was with another girl.
But I won't lose no sleep on that,
'Cause I've got a plan.
You're beautiful. You're beautiful.
You're beautiful, it's true.
I saw you face in a crowded place,
And I don't know what to do,
'Cause I'll never be with you.
Yeah, he caught my eye,
As we walked on by.
He could see from my face that I was,
Flying high,
And I don't think that I'll see him again,
But we shared a moment that will last till the end.
You're beautiful. You're beautiful.
You're beautiful, it's true.
I saw you face in a crowded place,
And I don't know what to do,
'Cause I'll never be with you.
You're beautiful. You're beautiful.
You're beautiful, it's true.
There must be an angel with a smile on her face,
When she thought up that I should be with you.
But it's time to face the truth,
I will never be with you.
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Sunday, January 29th, 2006
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Sunday
January 29th, 2006
2:53pm
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i really don't want this weekend to end. it has been the most fun i've had in a while. cassi's party last night was fun, and also a learning experience. i've learned to follow my gut instinct, be more outgoing, and have more confidence in myself. so yeah,to sum everything up- this weekend was amazing!
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Friday, January 27th, 2006
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Friday
January 27th, 2006
7:27pm
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nights like tonight make life worth living.
quote of the day:
Lauren: "Heather, where'd you learn to use chopsticks?"
Me: "It's in my genetic code."
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Tuesday, January 24th, 2006
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Tuesday
January 24th, 2006
8:09pm
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i'm tired of waiting. being patient is so hard, and i'm about to go insane.
~it's really hard to enjoy the life you have when you know that there is something amazing just beyond your reach.- it's like standing in a pitch black room with a spotlight on you, and knowing there's something waiting in the shadows but not being able to walk out of the light to see what it is
(would you look at that? i totally had a deep moment.)
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Saturday, January 21st, 2006
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Saturday
January 21st, 2006
3:54pm
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miss phs today...i'm nervous
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Friday, January 20th, 2006
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Friday
January 20th, 2006
4:14pm
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*so i just finished the book Ender's Game today, and it is awesome. it's probably one of the best books i've read in a long time.
*miss phs is tomorrow. i'm not sure if i'm excited or not, but i'm definitely nervous. there's nothing like being shoved into a huge group of gorgeous girls to make you feel really plain and boring.
*do you ever wonder why, just when things start to feel right and together in your life, you get something new and unexpected thrown at you? i do. life is a pain sometimes. i'm just ready for all of this drama to be over with
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Wednesday, January 18th, 2006
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Wednesday
January 18th, 2006
5:40pm
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don't you just love things like valentine's day and prom where it get shoved in you face that you're alone?
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Tuesday, January 10th, 2006
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Tuesday
January 10th, 2006
8:27pm
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life is crazy, stressful, intense, and fast, but totally amazing and certain things make it worth it.
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Sunday, January 8th, 2006
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Sunday
January 8th, 2006
2:23pm
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so yeah, i think i maybe screwed myself over yesterday, but whatever. at least i followed my heart and stepped out in faith. and whatever happens happens and i know it's meant to be. i'm just trusting God with this one and not letting it worry me. i just hope that i keep thinking that way no matter what. i wish i had enough self confidence to believe that the best will happen, but even taking a chance was a big thing for me so i'm just gonna take this one step at a time.
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Friday, January 6th, 2006
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Friday
January 6th, 2006
4:40pm
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she is the prom queen i'm in the marching band
she is a cheerleader i'm sittin in the stands
i get a little bit she gets a little more
she's miss america and i'm just the girl next door
i'm tired of being the girl who always gets overlooked because i'm not outgoing and bold. i'm tired of not getting noticed. not just noticed by anyone, but noticed by you. i see you almost everyday, and everyday you pass by with glancing at me twice. i want to be more than just someone you talk to if there's not anyone else around. i want to be someone you look for, someone you see- not see past. i'm tired of being of being the girl next door.
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Tuesday, January 3rd, 2006
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Tuesday
January 3rd, 2006
10:46pm
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A long december and there's reason to believe
Maybe this year will be better than the last
I can't remember the last thing that you said as you were leaven'
Now the days go by so fast
And it's one more day up in the canyons
And it's one more night in hollywood
If you think that i could be forgiven...i wish you would
The smell of hospitals in winter
And the feeling that it's all a lot of oysters, but no pearls
All at once you look across a crowded room
To see the way that light attaches to a girl
And it's one more day up in the canyons
And it's one more night in hollywood
If you think you might come to california...i think you should
Drove up to hillside manor sometime after two a.m.
And talked a little while about the year
I guess the winter makes you laugh a little slower,
Makes you talk a little lower about the things you could not show her
And it's been a long december and there's reason to believe
Maybe this year will be better than the last
I can't remember all the times i tried to tell my myself
To hold on to these moments as they pass
And it's one more day up in the canyon
And it's one more night in hollywood
It's been so long since i've seen the ocean...i guess i should
so i like this guy. he is one crazy cool person, but pretty shy. some of my friends keep saying i should tell him how i feel, but i don't know if that's such a good idea... i don't want to screw up our friendship and make things awkward. what do you guys think?
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